It seems like I am having trouble thinking of things to post lately. My life has gone down a peaceful path and I am just enjoying the non chaotic, anxiety free time. I have to say, that I am having continuous good days in a row. Which I haven't had in decades of my life. I can't remember when I had more than two good days in a row. I once heard a priest say that when a person suffers from migraine headaches and then it goes away. Some people think that they are happy. But in reality they are in a state of relief, not happiness. He said a lot of people think relief is happiness. It isn't happiness. When you do a sigh of relief, does that make you feel happy? No, it makes you less stressed but not happy. It is more like phew I am glad that is over. Not whoo hoo, what a great day! I can't say I am having whoo hoo days. But I am having really big bouts of non-stressful days. Something that is totally new to me. It is so new to me, that I am aware something has changed in my life. Is this what peace feels like?? Current Mood: peaceful
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